Tuesday, October 11, 2011


Thanks for the prayers!

We got our answer.
I do in fact have Lyme disease.
They also found several co-infections
from that nasty little tick.

We are grateful for answers.
A tad discouraged at the lengthy recovery we face.
1-3 years of treatment.

But I choose to be thankful there IS a treatment.
Thank you for your friendship and prayers!

And Jeane' if you're reading this--

Thursday, September 22, 2011

prayers please!

I need your prayers friends.

I am not feeling well.
I have not been feeling well for about year.
What we thought was just a terrible pregnancy
has turned into....
well we don't know what.
I do know I am sick and/or in pain on a daily basis.

I have kept this on the down low for a few reasons
{mainly because I don't like talking about it}
(hint, hint)
but have decided I need to ask for prayer.
I believe in the power of prayer.
I have seen many healings first hand.
My husband being one of those -- he was healed from chronic back pain.
So why wouldn't I ask!?

I have an appointment on Monday with a Lyme Disease "Specialist"
Please pray I find answers.
A solution.

I know when people are sick we want to help.
For now we are fine on food and child care
{i could use a cleaning lady..any takers ;)}

You can help by simply praying if I come to your mind
{especially for my upcoming appointment}
Thank you friends.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

big news

Big announcement!

I'm pregnant!!!!


Our CD project is finally complete!

Living For Eternity
(by petra christian fellowship)
is now available on iTunes
or (if you're local)
you can purchase a CD from me
for $13

So much hard work by so many people went into this album.
We'd love for you to check it out!

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Why I am leaving facebook, twitter and the blogging world...for now

Well my friends,
the time has come for me to say goodbye to the world of cyberspace.

{for now}

While I think the internet is an AMAZING way
to connect with people, share our lives and
and also spread the love of Christ,
I've been feeling
{for quite some time}
that I need to shut down for a bit.

I love sharing my thoughts and life here,
yet I am afraid I've been hiding behind my computer.

I feel impressed to leave my comfort zone
{behind this screen}
and share in the lives of those around me.
I want to be face to face with you.
I want to have you to my home to hear what's going on in your life
and to share what's going on in mine.
I want to meet my neighbors in person.
I want FACE time with people.

I will continue reading your blogs and updates
and may occasionally update myself if something
BIG is going on -- like another baby or something
{totally kidding}.

Pray for me as I step out.
Pray for boldness and courage.
And expect an invite to our place so I {and my family}
can get to know you {and your family} better!



Thursday, June 2, 2011

old thoughts

I've struggled to find words to write lately
(guess that's what a newborn will do to you).

Since I'm out of words during this season,
I thought I'd share some of my thoughts from the past year.

These 2 posts were my most read EVER.
AND they are my personal favorites.

{Sorry if you've already read them}

make me a servant

by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony

Monday, May 30, 2011


Awesome day spent with family today.

We hosted an impromptu picnic this
afternoon with {most} of my family.
I was busy preparing things so I didn't get a chance to take pics.

Later we gathered at the pond with the Bylers.

Fun memories were made today...

Friday, May 27, 2011

watching and waiting

We've been watching and waiting here at the Byler homestead.

A sweet robin decided to build her nest in my wreath.
We took it down 4 times before realizing
she was determined to make her home on our front door.

It's been fun watching her and checking the nest each morning.
{not so fun cleaning up all the bird poo she leaves on the step}

We've also been watching our strawberry patch.
We filled our first container this morning!

Now we are just waiting for Pecker and friends to lay some eggs :)

Enjoy the breeze this morning!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

back in the game

It's been a while since I've written
{really written}.

I've been silent not only on my blog but in general.

This last year has been hard.
Nothing totally devastating has happened but
a lot of little things have definitely taken their toll on my spirit.

As I've been pondering and praying this past week,
I've realized I have let my guard down.

Have you ever come through a season of life
where God was just totally moving?
You witnessed miracles! Received answers to prayer after prayer.
You felt passionate and on fire,
wanting to tell every person you encountered
about the love of Christ!

I was just in that place!
I was taking part in street ministry,
I was praying for random people at the grocery store!
I witnessed healing after healing!

What happened?

There are days I hardly feel like going to church
let alone doing street ministry.
There are days I wonder how in the world can I lead worship
when I can't sing the songs with the authority and passion I once had.

What happened?
I got comfortable.
I got lazy.
I got busy.

As soon as my guard came down,
the enemy was quick to attack.
It doesn't take much for the enemy to grab hold of us.
He knows our weaknesses,
he knows what distracts us.
And he's sneaky.
I didn't realize just how close he had gotten.

But it has become quite clear he is here and he is on a mission.
He is determined to steal my joy.
He is determined to kill my passion for Christ.
And he is determined to destroy my marriage, my ministry, my focus.

He loves that my focus is on Sarah, not Jesus.
He loves that I'm so caught up in my own problems
that I'm not gonna stop and pray for someone else's.
He loves that he has stolen my joy as I lead worship
and has replaced it with fear and anxiety.

But God is good.
He has been stirring my heart.
He has reminded me that he is still moving!
He is still doing miracles!
He is still answering prayers!
He is still healing the sick!
And he still wants to use me.

He's just waiting for me to jump back into the game!

I'm ready.

Awaken my heart Lord.
Fill me with a passion for you.
Light a fire in my soul.
Strengthen me for the battle.
Silence the enemy.
Speak your truth to my spirit.
Show me your heart.

This is not only my prayer for myself but my prayer for you.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

brutal honesty

What a gorgeous day.
This weather has really lifted my spirits
{the weather and my chandelier;)}.

I was laying on my lounge chair this afternoon
hoping to get a little color
as I enjoyed the warmth of the sun on my face.

I'm just coming out of the baby blues,
I'm still adjusting to three kiddos,
and I'm not happy what so ever about my 'new' body.

As I laid in the sun
I was feeling really good.
Better than I've felt in a while.
And then..

"Why do you have that big pimple in your mustache?" - Ruby

I haven't had time to fit a waxing in but rest assured I called and I'm going tomorrow.


Gotta love the innocent honesty of children.
Or not.

Monday, May 9, 2011

country fabulous

My new chandelier.
You have no idea the joy it brings to my heart
every time I walk by it.

{and check out the sun shining through the bay window. gorgeous.}

Monday, May 2, 2011

dining room. pecker. ruined clothes.

Drum roll please....
The dining room is finished!
{actually there is some detail work left
but it's good enough to share some photos}

Our little 'snack' hutch
Remember the green paint?
3 coats later...
and I love it.

The built in corner cupboard.
Again, love.

The bay window.
This thing was a mother to paint.
And although you can't see the wonderful paint job
just look at the view
we get to enjoy during dinner.

The front of our home.
We totally love this house.
It feels like home.
It is the perfect home for us.
I feel like I'm living in a sweet little {er, big}
farm house -- totally me.

Speaking of farms..Meet Pecker.
Our sweet little girls have named
one of our chickens, Pecker.
Oh dear.
Today Ruby came running inside
screaming and I mean screaming,

What the neighbors must think.

So there is a peek of our progress!
Andy and I were so thrilled with the finished dining room.
We were smiling, high fiving
And then..
we realized our dryer ruined 3 loads
YES 3 LOADS of laundry.
I didn't know if I should cry,
kick the dryer or
go sit in the dining room and enjoy our accomplishment
and worry about the dryer {and all our ruined clothes} tomorrow.

I'll cry tomorrow.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Loved this post by my sweet friend Jeane'
If you're a mama check it out!

I'm a huge fan of Jeane's blog.
She keeps mommy-hood real with a sense of humor
Did I mention she has 5 tiny tots?!?!
And did I mention she brought me cookies and wine this week!!!:):)

Stop over and visit the
The Coffee Cottage

Still painting....

Monday, April 25, 2011

painting update

The update is
We are STILL painting!
And we're still in the dining room!

We're making good progress between
feedings, changings, and life.

It WILL get done

So that's the update!:)

ps i love, love the color scheme
it's gonna look fab.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

songs for bailey

This post is for a very special little girl,
Miss Bailey :)

Bailey is my cousin's daughter.
It seems Bailey and I have a lot in common as we both
love to sing and dance!

My playlist has been empty
much to Bailey's dismay.

She requested I add music so she could sing and dance...

Well here you go Bailey!
These are just a few of my favorite
praise and worship songs.
I tried to have a good mix of
slow (ballet like) songs
and then some rock out and dance your heart out songs!

So crank up the music
and dance and sing your heart out sweet Bailey!
(I'm going to too;))

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

real love is hard love

Sometimes marriage is HARD.
But it's always worth fighting for.
We give up to easily these days..
I'll be the first to brag about my husband,
or tell you how madly in love we are.
But there are days 'my love' drives me insane
(and i'm just guessing here but i'm sure i have
gotten under his skin a time or two).
there have been days I've wanted to leave.
But we have chosen to fight for our marriage. Our love.

Press on my friends. Don't take the easy way out.
Fight for your love.

Read the lyrics below as you listen
(be sure to pause my playlist!)

So we’re back here again
Tip toeing round the edge of the end
Wondering who will be last to admit
That we’re finally over

Turned twenty one on the day that we met
Terrible shoes and plausible dress
It’s funny how sad the funny things get as you grow older

Better or worse
But what else can we do?
And better or worse
I am tethered to you
If it’s not either of us
Tell me who are we fooling?

I love the art of biting my tongue
I’m tired of trying to guess what was wrong
Both agreed on where we should go
But not how to get there

We tried and tried to loosen the knots
Thinking once we’re untangled we’ll be better off
But it’s these failures and faults that hold us together

Better or worse
But what else can we do?
And better or worse
I am tethered to you
If it’s not either of us
Tell me who are we fooling?

This beautiful tangle that’s bruising us blue
It’s a beautiful knot that we just can’t undo
Together we’re one but apart tell me
Who are we fooling?

Cause real love
Is hard love
It’s all we have
It’s a break-neck
Train wreck
It’s all we have

So we’re back here again
Turning away from the edge of the end
Arm in arm

Better or worse
But what else can we do?
And better or worse
I am tethered to you
If it’s not either of us
Tell me who are we fooling?

This beautiful tangle that’s bruising us blue
It’s a beautiful knot we just can’t undo
If it’s not either of us, tell me who are we fooling?

Together we’re one, but apart tell me
Who are we fooling?

-Brooke Fraser Listen Flags

Thursday, April 14, 2011

in our spare time...

Holy. Cow.
I'm pooped.
Isn't that how my last post started?
Yes, yes it is.

In addition to daily life and unpacking
we've decided to fill our spare time doing this ...

The above rooms are our dining room and family room
which we are preparing to paint.
So far we've stripped wallpaper, did some sanding and priming,
and will begin painting tomorrow!
Actually our good friend, Gary has offered to do the painting.
We're just doing the prep work.

I'm super excited (and a tinsy bit nervous)
to see my vision come to life.
Hopefully the reality is as good as the picture in my mind!
I love doing stuff like this!
Gives me a break from laundry and dishes :)

And just an FYI
most of you know but I've had a few
confused friends --

As Andy and I began the building process it became
very clear this was NOT the direction we were to be taking.
We did not have a peace about any of it and as much as we wanted to build
we could not go through with it in good conscience.
But we had already sold our house...quite a predicament.
Until we got a call from Andy's aunt (a realtor)
saying she thought we should look at the house for sale that was
RIGHT NEXT to the property where we were going to build.
We walked through, prayed, slept on it and
and quickly knew it was our house.
I love old houses. I love the character.
(ok sometimes i dislike the character --
like the stair well that is so narrow you can hardly fit your mattress up)

But this house is even more special since
Andy's grandparents built it and his father was BORN and raised here.
FUN, huh!?

So that's the scoop!
And that's why we are scraping wallpaper and painting
our 'NEW' house.

I'll post some pics when we finish painting!

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

exhaustion, tears, and grace.

Holy. Cow.
I'm pooped.
This whole no sleep thing is for the birds.
Ezra is doing great and adjusting to a 3rd child has been easier than I thought,
only because I {kinda} know what I am doing.
BUT life never stops!
Someone is always in need of something.

I have to laugh and share this:
Yesterday was a BAD day.
I was running on very little sleep and was in the grouchiest mood ever.
Sophie happened to be grouchy as well.
{not a good combo}
Well by the end of the day Sophie and I had had it with each other.
Andy walked in the door after a long day at market and I think all 4 of us
{Sophie, Ruby, Ezra and myself}
were ALL crying.
It's funny now but at the time I wanted to run away for a little while.
And I'm pretty sure Andy did too!
Lucky for him he had another long market day today:)

Today was much better
{probably because Ezra slept 6 hours straight last night - hooray}
We had several visitors, did some baking, and no tears:)

I have been so thankful for God's grace
and faithfulness the past few weeks.

I'm still waking up at 5am but not to spend time with the Lord.
I'm feeding Ezra with one eye open and then the girls
are up and rearing to go and they are going until 8pm
I get Ezra settled and fed for bed and then I --

I have not had my daily time with Jesus
{I talk w/ him all day as I do my work}
but just sitting and soaking in His presence
has not happened for quite awhile.

I miss it terribly. Oh how I miss it.
But He is faithful. I often feel him close,
even though I haven't taken the time to meet with him
he is still faithful to meet with me when I need it the most.
I've realized more than ever how much I NEED Him.
I need his strength and grace to get me through these long days.
I am astounded and thankful that he is faithful
even when I am not.

So tonight I go to bed exhausted but knowing that
His mercies are new every morning.

Looking forward to tomorrow
{Andy's day off!}
Maybe I can catch a nap and some QT with Jesus!


Sunday, April 3, 2011


We did it.
We survived the month of March
(with only a few minor {OK, maybe 1 major} meltdowns)!

A baby and a house within 2 1/2 weeks.

But with the help of you, our family and friends
we pulled it off!

We love, love, love our new home!
We are so excited to make it ours with
a few family photos, kids art work and some fresh paint.

We are most excited about the memories that will be made here.
Memories as a family and memories with our friends!
We anticipate many picnics, family gatherings, and parties in the future!
Our hope is to get somewhat settled and then instead of a house warming
we will host a ' Thank You' picnic, for all our family and friends
who helped us pack, move, unpack, made us meals, and
for those who have already signed up to help paint!
Give us a few weeks though;)

Our sincerest thanks.
We are blessed.
And so thankful.

I'm sure some of you (missy) were hoping for pics but
I'm too tired and busy to take any right now.
(did I mention having 3 kids is insane?)

Since I won't be posting pics feel free to come visit!
You are welcomed to pop over and say hey anytime..
as long as you rock a baby or unpack a box or two;)
Seriously, come see us.

Well I'm bumming internet from Seth until ours is hooked up
and it's rather slow so I better sign off and get to work!

Happy Sunday.

ps call our cell numbers if you need us,
Our phone will not be hooked up until the end of the week!

Thursday, March 24, 2011

the babe.

Don't worry we're still alive!
Just a tad busy.

Ezra is doing so well!
We are so enjoying him and loving this newborn stage.

I wish we weren't so busy with moving
so I could just sit a stare at him.
He's gorgeous.
I'm totally in love.

Here are a few pics for (once again)
my non facebook friends.
(you really create a lot of extra work for me)

Just hours after birth,
Trying to figure out what in the world just happened.

Snuggles with mommy.

My boys.

Big sister, Ruby:)

AND Big sister, Sophie.
Little guy never has a moment to himself!

Eeeeee! So.Stinkin'.Cute.
2 weeks old today!

Saturday, March 12, 2011

he's here

Ezra Joel
March 10, 2011
7lbs. 5oz.

(details to follow soon)

Monday, February 28, 2011

he loves me.

So I discovered a few things tonight.
I discovered I am self absorbed, proud, selfish, and judgmental.
{I'm sure there are other things I could add to this list
but these were the specific ones brought to my attention}.

Not by a person but by the Holy Spirit.

Ouch. Not the way I'd like to describe myself.
God revealed these things to me but the point of revealing them was not
to bring me down or point out all my flaws
{I do believe he pointed these out because they need corrected}
but after pointing them out he said,
"I love you"

He loves me.
This woman full of pride and selfishness.
This woman who judges and puts herself higher than others.
He loves me.
He calls me beloved.
He delights in me.
He calls me daughter.

I've been thinking about this all day.
Why? How?
How can God love a person like me?

I will never understand his love for me.
But I have felt it. I have experienced it.
It is real. It is powerful. It is life changing.

No matter where you are,
No matter how terrible a person you may think you are,
He. Loves. You.

His greatest desire is for you to know that love.
Really know his love.

We all carry baggage, we all sin, we all fall short..
don't let those things keep you from experiencing Christ.
The devil will desperately try to hold those things over you
to keep you from the love of God, because he knows if you experience
God's love, you will be FOREVER changed and he will no longer
have a grip on you and your life.

God sees past our ugliness. He sees past the mistakes.
He knows our failures and our weaknesses--yet

He loves you.
Is your heart pounding out of your chest as you read this?
That's him.
Let him love you.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

in awe of my freakishness.

How is this even possible?
I am pregnant as I type this
yet I cannot wrap my head around the fact that
a human being is growing inside of me.

I cannot wrap my head around the fact that my skin
is able to stretch the way it has.

I cannot figure out how I do not just topple over
whenever I attempt to stand or walk .
{i did topple over last week much to my family's amusement}

I am still in awe at the complexity of our bodies.
How God has designed everything to work together.
Every tiny detail.
It truly is amazing.
Mind boggling.

And down right freakish!

6o weeks pregnant

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

receive the blessing

I can't believe it's the end of February.
Time has been dragging, yet it has flown!

As we enter into March, we enter into a season of major transition.
Baby Byler will be making his debut and we will be moving.
(and we'll be saying goodbye to winter--hallelujah!)

The last several months have been filled with
anticipation, stress, surprises, worry, decisions, excitement..
well pretty much every emotion a human can feel!
(mixed in with raging pregnancy hormones, bless my husband)

As we begin this adventure our prayer is that
we would receive the blessings God has poured out on us.
We would not allow anxiety or stress or feelings of being overwhelmed
to cast a shadow on these events that are to be SO full of JOY!
I know there will be challenges.
Sleepless nights.
Long days.
Sleepless nights.
Lots of painting.
Sleepless nights.
2 young children adjusting to a baby and a new house.
Sleepless nights.
(i like my sleep if you haven't caught on)

But I pray I (we) see the good.

I pray I allow myself to experience these moments.
I pray I can look into my sons eyes even at 2am
and be filled with pure joy.

I pray my days would be intentional and productive.
I pray this time of change will bring my family closer together
and cause an even greater dependency on Christ.
I pray for a spirit of peace and calmness in our home.

I pray that we will look back at this year -- 2011
not as one of chaos but
as one of the greatest years of our lives.
A year filled with memories.
A year filled with God's goodness.
A year of blessings.

Would you join us in praying for these things?
I know there will be challenges and moments of frustration
but I also know that he hears our prayers and his heart
is for us to live a good, abundant life full of his joy and peace.
All we need to do is ask for it and then receive it.

Thank you friends.
Things may be quiet here for a while as we are busy preparing,
but feel free to check in or send your hellos!:)

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

proud mama

I'm overwhelmed with pride at this moment.

This morning I was not feeling well.
(we've been fighting the stomach bug since friday)
Andy had left for work and I was laying in bed thinking how I
was going to get these girls up and organized for school.

Just then my early {early} riser waltzes in my room
with a cheerful 'Good morning, mommy'
Then she spotted "the bowl"
The bowl has been making it's rounds,
and you do not want to be in possession of the bowl!

She said "oh no, you have the bug!"
Can I get you a Sprite?
My heart melted.
As I lay there sipping my Sprite, I heard lots of banging in the kitchen
She returned to my room shortly after with 2 bowls of fresh fruit,
and said 'I'll feed Ruby breakfast, mom.'
My heart {still melted from the Sprite offer} ooozed with pride.
About an hour later she came in completely dressed, backpack and coat on.
She then informed me she laid clothes out for Ruby
and they were on her bed when I was ready to dress her.

I am feeling MUCH better
{the Lord spared me from what my family had experienced}
I left my bedroom to begin disinfecting and found:
A made bed with Ruby's clothes {completely color coordinated} folded nicely on top.
A toothbrush with a drop of toothpaste ready and waiting for her little sister.
And the empty fruit bowls in the sink.

My six year old completely and totally took care of her mother
and little sister with no one asking her to do so. She went above and beyond
anything I would even think to ask her to do!

I am one proud mama.
{just had to brag a little}

Sunday, February 13, 2011

making memories

I'm not a huge lover of Valentine's Day.
I probably would be but my husband has convinced me
it's a commercial holiday
(smart man, convincing me to dislike a day set aside for flowers and mushy cards).

But I do like to feel special and
I enjoying making my loved ones feel special.
I was laying in bed last night thinking about ways I could make
my family feel {extra} loved on this day set aside for love!

As I was thinking, memories from my childhood filled my mind.
My mom ALWAYS made me feel special and loved,
especially on holidays.
{every holiday: Valentines, St. Patty's, Easter, Flag Day..}
That didn't mean she bought me elaborate gifts but she did small things
that to this day I remember and they still make me feel loved and special!
A treasure hunt leading to a basket of goodies,
a note waiting for me on the counter
next to a plate of heart shaped cookies,
small things that in my eyes were HUGE.

My girls are old enough now to begin making memories.
I want them to have memories to look back on like I do.
It's such a special thing.

So laying in bed I came up with the grand plan
to have a special candlelit dinner.
As much as I wanted to go all out, I also did not want to spend money
and I only had 12 hours to be creative. So it would need to be simple.
I decided to go through the house and gather anything pink or red.
I came up with a decent amount of things and got decorating!

It turned out cute enough,
{the kids thought it was gorgeous, that's what matters}
and we had a special candlelit dinner in the dining room.

I hope and pray this will be something they remember.
A special night of feeling loved.
A special memory to look back on when they are mommies.

And an extra special surprise for mommy
My favorite!
Not only were they delish
{i already ate 5...what? I didn't want them to go bad}
But they made me feel {extra} loved.
Thanks babe.

So we're not huge fans of the 'commercial holiday'
But come on who doesn't want a little love?

Have fun lovin' on your loved ones:)

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

small steps on this big journey

If you recall a few weeks ago I received a
great revelation from the Lord,

If you also recall I was a bit surprised
at the simplicity in these instructions
and was hoping for something a little "bigger" or more "spiritual"

I figured I should not argue..
there must be a reason for this.

I have been successful in my new routine and have reaped the rewards.
Here are some of the things I've been seeing and learning:

1) I am wired for routine.
I love waking up and doing the exact same thing every morning.
I love to eat the exact same thing for breakfast.
I love walking out the door at the exact same time every day.
Like I said,I am wired for routine
(ok and have a mild case of OCD).

Just having a routine has helped start my days off on a good note.

2) I have seen major changes in my whole family!
I think I wrote before that this saying applies to our house
"If Mama ain't happy, ain't nobody happy"
For whatever reason my attitude can set the whole tone for our house!?
Since I've begun this new routine
the whole vibe in our house has changed.

No more struggling to get the kids ready on time,
no more yelling before the sun has risen.
Instead we all sit and have breakfast together.
Why? Because we have TIME!

What better way to start the day.
No more rushing, yelling, or slamming of doors.

3) I am learning my new routine is actually 'self discipline'.
And I'm learning I apparently don't have much self discipline!
Just getting to bed early is a fight
but I'm learning I must discipline myself.

Some mornings I wake right up and have my coffee but then
I don't feel like reading my Bible
but I open it regardless of what I feel like doing.

This discipline has overflowed into other areas..
Cleaning up the kitchen before bed, making my bed in the morning,
brushing my hair everyday
(you'd be surprised the things I try to avoid doing in a day).

I have a long ways to go but I'm learning. And I like it.

4) The biggest reward from all of this...
Meeting with God every morning. Hearing his voice.
I often think, 'I wish I heard from the Lord like So and So.'
They must be so spiritual.

No. They must spend time with the Lord!
I've been hearing the Lord so clearly throughout my days the last week.
He has given me words to encourage others with,
he has prompted me to make phone calls that I wouldn't have otherwise,
He's shown me the areas I really need to be working on,
And he has been present throughout my day in a real way.

The original instructions of going to bed and waking up early
may have seemed simple, even silly at first.
But I'm seeing now how huge it is going to be in my life.
In my everyday practical life, and in my spiritual journey.
I think this simple act of obedience will lead to greater revelation
and a deeper growth than I thought possible.

I'm excited for this journey.
Excited to see where these little steps lead.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

a balancing act

We all know what a balancing act life can be.
Family, friends, work, God time, fun time, alone time.
How do you prioritize?
How do you make sure every area gets the proper attention?
How do you avoid burn out?
Do you do things to please others?
Are you being selfish with your time?

I'm not writing to give you some profound answer,
I'm writing because these are the questions I've been asking myself.

The last months have been quite the balancing act.
I rarely feel well, so I put a lot of thought into "what will I do today?"
If I choose to clean for the day,
that means no going out with girlfriends in the evening.
If I choose to go to the party, that means no cleaning or dinner for my family.

I'm doing my best to balance everything and everyone
but it is honestly overwhelming trying to decide
everyday what/who is most important.
I have come to the conclusion that until the baby arrives and we are settled
into our new house I need to be home.
Plain and simple. Home.
I need to use all my energy in being sure my family is taken care of.
Clean clothes, dinner on the table, energy to play and read with the kids,
not to mention packing!
..and all with a smile:)

I'm sorry if you've felt neglected by me.
NOT my intention. My friends mean so much to me.
But my family must come first.

I'm happy to report that my first week of hello mornings has
been super successful and has helped me so much
with this fine balancing act
(and has also helped me come to this conclusion).

to the day I can resume life as I once knew it
but for now forgive me (and please take no offense)
as I hunker down and love on my family for the next 6 weeks
(actually give me 10 weeks as I'll need to recover, adjust to baby AND move)!

My blog and facebook shall be my lifeline until then:)

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

prayers for kate and michael

I feel sick in my stomach.
In the last 5 minutes I read of 2 sweet little children
and their battles with cancer.

So many questions?

Would you please take a moment to pray for these sweet
children and their families?
I know I feel so helpless in these situations,
yet I know the power of prayer.
Take a moment to lift them up, would you?

First is beautiful, precious Kate.
She is 6 and battling a rare form of brain cancer.
They received devastating news today.
Click here for an update from her mom, Holly.

Pray for Kate

Second is a little preschool friend, Michael.
They found a tumor on his kidney on Christmas Eve.
They found more on his lungs.
He will have his kidney removed tomorrow.
He is 4 years old.

Please lift these sweet little ones up in prayer.
Cover their families.

I'll never understand things like this.
I have the same question as innocent Kate
"Why didn't Jesus heal me, daddy?"

Still believing for miracles!

Sunday, January 30, 2011

hello mornings

I wouldn't call myself a morning person--especially these days!
Over the last year I've fallen into the habit of staying up late.
Staying up to watch mindless TV, blog, do my nails,
anything, as long as I'm alone. I love the quietness.
I love doing whatever I want!

The problem:
I wake up miserable. cranky. annoyed. exhausted.
My kids are the early to bed, early to rise type.
They rarely sleep past 6:30am.
So you can imagine when they come barreling into my room and
it's still pitch dark outside I'm less than thrilled.
I stumble out of bed, disheveled, with one eye 1/2 open.
{It's a wonder my children aren't terrified to arouse such a creature!}
I fumble to find my glasses and bathrobe, then
I start the walk to the kitchen
to get the coffee brewing--
before getting half way to the kitchen I'm bombarded
"I'm hungry!" " I want dippy eggs!" "Can I have jelly beans?"

"BE QUIET" I shout!
"Give me 10 minutes, please, just 10 minutes."
They always have a look of hurt and confusion on their faces,
as if to say "sorry mommy I was just hungry, that's all"
Ugh. I'm such a failure. I'm a horrible mother.
These poor kids. Why do I do that? Why did I yell?

Umm, the above scenerio is a less than ideal way to start ones day.
Not only did I yell at my kids and make them feel bad,
I filled my mind with horrible words about myself
before I even made it to the kitchen!

A few weeks ago I took a break from my computer {yes, a big deal for me},
to spend time seeking the Lord. I felt like he was wanting to speak with me.
So I turned off the computer and spent lots of time
reading scripture, praying, listening.

In the past when I've sought the Lord in such a diligent way,
he met me in a big way!

Revealing some great truth, or prompting me to do something 'big'..
I was expecting nothing different this time around.
Speak to me Lord!
Reveal some great unknown revelation!
Show me your wonders! Do miracles!

Well he spoke. He actually spoke very clearly. More clearly than usual.
He said two things:
1) Go to bed earlier
2) Wake up earlier and spend time alone with me.

This is the great revelation?
Go to bed earlier?
I was thinking something a little more..uh..spiritual...

I heard these instructions and thought well that will be easy!
At least he didn't say "Move to Africa!"
I went to bed early but as I lay in bed I wondered
what was happening on facebook

I'll just check quick...
2 hours later I've read 3 different blogs, stalked some people on facebook,
and wrote and deleted a blog post of my own.
SO much for going to bed early. Oh well, I'll still get up early.
yeah. right.

SO just 2 days ago I read about a challenge called
Hello Mornings!
The challenge: Start your day off right by waking up before anyone in your house.
Spending time in the Word, praying, listening, worshipping, exercising
and organizing your day before anyone else is stirring.

Today was my first day!
And it was a great way to start off my morning.
When my kids came bursting out of their rooms I had already
spent time praying for them, I was excited to receive their hugs,
and I was ready
for some dippy eggs too:)

I will admit the alarm went off at 5:15am and I may have hit snooze..
then it went off again. I prayed God please help me get up.
OK, Sarah just at least sit up. OK, I can sit up.
I sat up, OK, now put your glasses on...OK,glasses on.
Then I was suddenly overwhelmed...
Oh Lord how am I going to do this FOREVER? I can't do this.
I won't do it tomorrow, why bother today?
I heard him say 'don't worry about tomorrow. Just get up today.'
OK, just get 2 feet on the floor, that's the worst part..
1,2,3! I'M UP! I DID IT!
Once I was out of bed the morning was amazing!
Coffee {in complete silence}, worship music, prayer, journaling!
THAT is the way to start ones day!

"I will seek you in the morning and learn to walk in your ways. Step by step you'll lead me and I will follow you all of my days."

I'm writing this for 3 reasons
1) I'm trying desperately to keep my eyes open! If I nap then
I'll be up late, if I'm up late..well you know..

2) I do not write anything on this blog that I don't 100% believe
or that I don't fully intend to do! In other words it's a kind of accountability. I wrote it, now I need to do it.

3) To encourage you to start your days off right!
You cannot go wrong when you
start your day talking with God.
Asking him to join you in your day.

Asking him to guide your steps for the day.

I'm looking forward to this challenge,
{I might be singing a different tune at 5:15 tomorrow morning}
I can't wait to see how God moves and works in my heart and life
and the life of my family! I think we have some good mornings awaiting us:)

Check out the
challenge for yourself!